New WI Day

More bad eating, more shocking chocolate consumption. Check out what I got in my grocery shop on Saturday :(

If that isnt enough to make your stomach turn, nothing will.

No after weeks of faffing about, losing motivation and perseverance half way through the day, I have decided ENOUGH! I've changed my WI to Tuesdays from Thursdays because a) it means that I can start my new week NOW and no more mucking about; b) I work from home Tuesdays and wont be running late for work at the office ;)

So I hopped on the Wii this morning, took a deep breath and loosened my death grip on the controller. No loss, no gain. Punched the air in victory and wonder what the heck is going on - 2 weeks well over points and a total of 500 grams lost in that time. Amazing!

It certainly fired up the motivation for me today, and I am pleased to say that I have not eaten any chocolate today, and have even saved a point.

Yay!

Extra challenges are being faced at the moment as I have stopped smoking. I had my last cigarette 59 hours ago. I am using patches and having lollipops as cigarette replacements but its still hard going. If I can quit smoking and still lose weight, I will certainly realise how strong I am.

The real post

I'm very excited my test post worked! Wow! (I got a new phone on Wednesday and it has SO many cool features! Too many to even count)

So, I know you are all GAGGING to know how WI went. I continued to blow out all week and kicked myself about for it. I was resigned to a gain, it was just a matter of how much.

So I braced myself and hopped on the scales yesterday. 500 gram loss!

What?!

Not quite sure what the old bod is doing at the moment. I was well over points by at least 50 (I stopped tracking on Tuesday), and I've shifted to maintenance so am 'allowed' 23 a day as opposed to 19.

Dont get me wrong, I'm not complaining. I'm just very confused!

And you would think that after escaping Epic Gain that I would be good, right?

Well, I'm trying but have a huge sweet tooth at the moment. PT says that it could be a lack of carbs again but to eat a small amount of what I crave. So I've been doing that the last few days and it isnt looking pretty on my points tracker....

Aiming for improvement this week. And at least I'm still keeping up the exercise!

One nifty application I found for my phone is a weight tracker. I copied down my stats from the Weight Tracker on WW and got this awesome graph. It certainly helped with motivation this afternoon

test post from my phone

Will do a 'real' post soon. Just had to check this out. :)

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Bad week. Very bad week.

I've fallen off the wagon in spectacular style this week and I have no idea why.

Its day 6 of my week, 2 days from WI, and my sins are as follows:

Saturday - went to a social event at a local pub with fellow Mums. I didn't drink alcohol, but made good use of the free non-al punch on offer. Ingredients were tropical fruit juice and lemonade. Somehow I doubt it was Sprite Zero... I lost count of how many glasses I had but I'm guessing at least 10. There was also a steady stream of nibbles coming out: deep fried salmon and rice balls, fish cakes (fried), a platter of battered fish bites and spring rolls. Vegetarianism saved me from further sin as I couldnt eat the mini pastries, quiche, hot dogs or sausage rolls although I desperately wanted to. I also ordered a large bowl of fries. Very, very bad.

Monday - Tofu night in our house, but try as I might, I couldn't even fake enthusiasm for it. So we ended up getting Pizza under the guise of 'celebrating' DH's new job. Well, I pigged out like I have not done in over a year. 5 slices of pizza, half a box of Lemon pepper wedges with Aioli, Deep fried sweetcorn nuggets, washed down with chocolate milk and chased with a Rocky Road Magnum. 40 points! For dinner!!

My body punished me overnight with a distended stomach and a food hangover. Well deserved in my opinion.

So after all this you would think that I would be goig out of my way to be good today. Well, I'm trying but cutting a fine line. I work from home today and took Luke to playgroup where I had chocolate cake (a tiny square but I never have issues resisting usually). I'm not even HUNGRY todya yet I find myself snacking like a fiend.... rice crackers, low-fat cheese on toast, and meringues that I bought as I managed to resist the chocolate twist pastry that beckoned me at the shop.

I've been snacking for days now. Its got to the point where I am chewing gum to have something in my mouth, hoping that it will keep me away from the pantry. Its hit and miss.

I'm not hungry, perhaps I'm a bit bored, but I really thought I had waved farewell to the emotional eating. The one bonus is that at least I am keeping up with my regular exercise. At least 2 sessions at the gym a week, lasting an hour a time. Also running a bit here and there too.

I desperately need help. What is wrong with me that I am eating without being hungry? Is it self sabotage as I'm so close to goal? I keep beating myself up but that doesnt help OR prevent me from repeating the behaviour.

Please, someone say something profound! I cant go on like this or I'll find the 30kg again before I know whats hit me :(